I have a brain tumour

[SpankwiR]

Sorry to hear this news Toni, I wish you all the best and a speedy recovery. I dont know you personally but i see everyone who follows QPR as a big extended family and I know that many more feel the same and will be thinking of you during this challenging time.

[kron-1664]

keep fighting mate and all the best

[vespa]

All the best mate

[gator]

Obviously stories like this put everything into perspective! Our thoughts are all with you mate, stay strong!

[LoftusRoadLad]

Thinking of you Toni.....all the best to you and your close ones.

[Toni German]

My goodness! 48 replies in less than 24 hours!

First of all, a big "thank you" to each and every one of you for the kind thoughts. They mean so much to me, I don't feel so alone knowing the "QPR family" are out there, sending me all this positivity. To be honest, I'm still mentally coming to terms with this diagnosis. It's not a case of denial, more a case of "Why me?".

I'm very lucky to have a wife and daughter that are very supportive and caring. I'd be lost without them. They've supported me through the Leukaemia and they'll support me through this.

The doctors have decided to monitor me in the immediate future. They say that in the general scheme of things, the tumour is quite small at the moment. If it continues growing it may require an operation and/or radiotherapy - but that's for the future.

The way I am feeling at the moment, I don't think I'll be able to come back to LR. It is a progressive illness - I'm not just going to magically feel better one day. I don't go out on my own any more because of the dizziness I experience when I'm on my feet. I don't have a shower any more, only baths, for the same reason. I'm just glad I now understand why I have been experiencing these symptoms for the last couple of years. I live in Hampshire now (brought up in Ealing) and it's quite a trek to LR from my place.

The worst thing is the deafness. Cos I've lost my hearing in my left ear it's very hard to judge where a noise is coming from. When only one ear is working you sort of lose all sense of direction. I expect I will start to feel angry at some stage though this has not occurred yet.

With the Mods' permission, I'd like to keep this thread updated as things go along to let you know how things turn out. I find it quite therapeutic to put things down in writing and communicate to others.

Once again thanks for all the replies, they are very comforting.

[LoftusRoadLad]

Keep us updated Toni...its always good to hear whats happening.

[silvercue]

Toni - glad to see you are keeping up as normal life as you can (I mean posting here can take quite a lot of effort sometimes ;) ). I think diagnosis is key. Now they know what they are dealing with and it means they know what they need to do. That really is vital as some don't get that diagnosis until it is more serious.

I was thinking it would be nice to ask if there is anything we can do, but I saw someone posted about the importance of giving blood - I think just by your post people's minds will think about these things and you may have helped the world a little bit.

On a more personal note - I live in Hampshire too - it's a big place I know, but if you feel well enough to go to a game next season, as long as it is a weekend game I would be happy to drive you there and back. I know watching that shower is not necessarily going to help with any recovery, but the day out just might.

[qprted]

hes theres

hey theres only one way to reply to this thread
as you guys know its me qprted
holy jesus in heaven can we ask you to send your great healing powers to our mate tony
we of the qpr fan base dont want him to feel lonely

so send some purple and lilac energy rays
help him through these difficult days
his only comfort is when the great adel plays
let him wake up tommorow all in a daze

but when he comes out of the daze his hearing has returned
and tony german finds gods mighty rays have trully burned
healing energy can penetrate any metal or any mortal ideas
so tony dont worry you will live for ever have no fears

[Wiz]

Stay strong fella and all the best wishes for you in your fight with this awful condition.

[Mellowhoop]

What terrible news, I imagine your feeling like you've been hit by a truck being told news like that.. Lets hope in our last few games we can manage a few good performances and put a smile on your face.

I wish you and your family the very best, not often I come on here and get teary eyed. Good luck my friend. Stay strong.

[Snaxo]

Stay strong and positive chap. Glad you have your wife and daughter's support - together you can overcome it. Wishing you all the luck in the world.

[Olly]

Good luck and hope things turn out for the better

[Bluehoop]

My goodness! 48 replies in less than 24 hours!

First of all, a big "thank you" to each and every one of you for the kind thoughts. They mean so much to me, I don't feel so alone knowing the "QPR family" are out there, sending me all this positivity. To be honest, I'm still mentally coming to terms with this diagnosis. It's not a case of denial, more a case of "Why me?".

I'm very lucky to have a wife and daughter that are very supportive and caring. I'd be lost without them. They've supported me through the Leukaemia and they'll support me through this.

The doctors have decided to monitor me in the immediate future. They say that in the general scheme of things, the tumour is quite small at the moment. If it continues growing it may require an operation and/or radiotherapy - but that's for the future.

The way I am feeling at the moment, I don't think I'll be able to come back to LR. It is a progressive illness - I'm not just going to magically feel better one day. I don't go out on my own any more because of the dizziness I experience when I'm on my feet. I don't have a shower any more, only baths, for the same reason. I'm just glad I now understand why I have been experiencing these symptoms for the last couple of years. I live in Hampshire now (brought up in Ealing) and it's quite a trek to LR from my place.

The worst thing is the deafness. Cos I've lost my hearing in my left ear it's very hard to judge where a noise is coming from. When only one ear is working you sort of lose all sense of direction. I expect I will start to feel angry at some stage though this has not occurred yet.

With the Mods' permission, I'd like to keep this thread updated as things go along to let you know how things turn out. I find it quite therapeutic to put things down in writing and communicate to others.

Once again thanks for all the replies, they are very comforting.

Sorry to hear your latest news ToniG. Keep strong mate.
There's no problem with the thread staying open for as long as you want. I will suggest it stays here for now and then perhaps we can sticky it so it doesn't drop too far down the pages over the coming months

[lymehoop]

like to add my best wishes too Toni