I am now worried about my club, only weeks after I was full of optimism at how the season was going. Sitting in my front room, I now find out our manager has been suspended and we now sit in 12th place in the Championship – while teams we were battling with in recent weeks are now starting to pull away. A 3-1 defeat to Watford followed our 5-1 thrashing by Middlesbrough at Loftus Road and serious questions have to be asked about our defence. We are starting to crumble and what started off as a possibly impressive season is looking like it could end it tatters – and it is not even Christmas yet.